Film & TV

Avengers • Endgame [SPOILERS]

Guys I am shooketh. I just watched what is essentially the greatest movie of a time and I 100% feel like I will explode if I don’t have a full on fan-girl freak out. I’m too shook right now so I’mma just bullet point this b***h

  • Russo (Joe or Mark?) made a cameo in his own movie which is the epitome of badass!! Y’all notice him too?
  • The Cap on Cap fight scene *screams*
  • Speaking of Cap, he freaking STOLE THE SHOW. My voice is literally gone because I screamed so loud! That was the coolest s*** I ever saw. Cap and Thor both sharing the hammer and axe! That is cinematic history right there.
  • Why oh why did they ruin Thor in this movie! That pot belly completely obliterated Chris Hemsworth’s six pack in my mind. I need a quick google image search to undo the trauma.
  • Who is excited for the new Guardians movie now that Thor is a part of them???!!! You could see the little thread they left hanging so I’m guessing that will be the premise of the next movie… Finding Gamora…
  • Who else was freaking mad that they cut the scene of Captain Marvel arriving? You know the scene in the trailer when the battery in the pager dies and they all freak out….? Can’t believe they cut it out.
  • I just remembered the death of Black Widow… Why the hell did they do that? This movie had me sobbing you guys. SOBBING!
  • The most important part of the movie: Tony Stark. Sacrificing himself. All I could think was, my how far we’ve come: from ignorant womanizing, billionaire, weapons maker to unduster of half the universe. You’ve gotta give it up for Robert Downey Junior. That SOB is the MVP!

Ok it’s literally 11PM as I write this post and I’m exhausted. I couldn’t go to bed without having a moment of fan-girling but I promise I’ll write a more succinct less crazy review later. Good night y’all!

Life · Relationships

Things I Genuinely Learnt Because of Ageing Up

The title of this post makes it seem like I’m 85 or something when I’m actually 21. I know a lot of people are probably thinking thay that’s sooo young but when you think about it, it’s really not. I believe that in this period of time we’re currently living in, people are experiencing things, life way quicker and smarter than ever before [given the vast and unprecedented pool of knowledge we have, it’s not all that shocking]. I mean we’ve got 16 year olds buying their own houses and cars, and 21 year old billionaire moms. So if you really think about it, 21 feels down right old (just ask any teenager, they’ll give it too you straight)… Anyway so what wisdom have I acquired in my vast great age?The first and probably most important:

One thing I still struggle with and I think a lot of people secretly struggle with is being unashamed to like what we like, to be who we truly want to be. I like to read, I like to write, I’m a Christian, I’m African, I like to eat…. These facts have at one point or another made me feel ashamed to be myself. I’m still working on a lot of it. But, there’s nothing wrong with being unapologetically you (unless that means that means that you like to murder people then please be very very apologetic). Sometimes it takes living a little to realize this fact. I’m proud to say I love my skin, I love to read, I love to write, I love God, the creator of the universe and His son Jesus Christ.

Another lesson that took me a while to learn. I had to drill this into my head, not everyone is out to get you, not everyone is thinking bad about you. Everytime someone slighted me in the least I would go on a mopping spree, spend days wondering why I’m so weird, why no one likes me. It’s a poisonous train of thought. I had to step out of my head and realize I can’t control how people feel about me, if they like me, then cool let’s me friends! If they don’t then that’s too bad but there is no amount of mopping that will change a person’s feelings once they’re set.

Sometimes you gotta make a choice be alone? Or remain unhappy? Sometimes they are negative people in our lives, be it friends or romantic partners and the decision to stay or go comes crushing down our heads. For the longest time I feared that losing friends and partners meant that I would be alone for ever, because making new friends is the hardest and don’t get me started on dating. But you guys the most exhilarating thing is realizing that you no longer will accept bullshit in your life. That you won’t take crap from anyone. That negativity will not be allowed into your life. It’s freeing.

I just realized that this post could be very inspiration (some real Jay Shetti type s***) or very depressing… Either way I hope you learnt something or at the very least connected to something no matter small it was *what am I talking about*.. Anyway thank you you gorgeous pair of eyeballs. I’ll catch you in the next post? *Click the follow button in the sidebar*

Stay Noble,

• Ngoza May •

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Book Review || Daisy Jones and the Six by Taylor Jenkins Reid

Title: Daisy Jones & The Six
Author: Taylor Jenkins Reid
Genre: (Historical) Fiction
Pages: 368
Publisher: Ballantine Books
Release Date: March 5th 2019

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My Rating: ⭐⭐⭐⭐⭐

Everyone knows Daisy Jones & The Six, but nobody knows the reason behind their split at the absolute height of their popularity . . . until now. Daisy is a girl coming of age in L.A. in the late sixties, sneaking into clubs on the Sunset Strip, sleeping with rock stars, and dreaming of singing at the Whisky a Go Go. The sex and drugs are thrilling, but it’s the rock and roll she loves most. By the time she’s twenty, her voice is getting noticed, and she has the kind of heedless beauty that makes people do crazy things.Also getting noticed is The Six, a band led by the brooding Billy Dunne. On the eve of their first tour, his girlfriend Camila finds out she’s pregnant, and with the pressure of impending fatherhood and fame, Billy goes a little wild on the road. Daisy and Billy cross paths when a producer realizes that the key to supercharged success is to put the two together. What happens next will become the stuff of legend. The making of that legend is chronicled in this riveting and unforgettable novel, written as an oral history of one of the biggest bands of the seventies. Taylor Jenkins Reid is a talented writer who takes her work to a new level with Daisy Jones & The Six, brilliantly capturing a place and time in an utterly distinctive voice.

This book… This book you guys… I can only think of one word to describe this book and it’s brilliant. Daisy Jones and the Six is abso-freaking-lotly brilliant.

“Which is what we all want from art, isn’t it? When someone pins down something that feels like it lives inside us? Takes a piece of your heart out and shows it to you? It’s like they are introducing you to a part of yourself.” 
― Taylor Jenkins Reid, Daisy Jones & The Six

And that quote basically sums what Daisy Jones & The Six for me. The aspect of not feeling worthy, of trying [no fighting] to prove you’re good enough… That’s something that resonates inside of everyone… At least I think so.

When I first opened up this book and realized it was written in an interview kind of style, I got really hesitant because [as the synopsis describes] this is a book chronicling the story of band, their rise to fame and subsequent break up, so I feared the style of writing wouldn’t so the story justice. Boy, I was absolutely freaking wrong, the interview style was actually the thing that made this story. It made the story seem that much more real, like these were real characters, going through real life. I loved it.

When you take a look at The Seven Husband’s of Evelyn Hugo [T.J. Reid’s previous book] you kinda realise how similar the two books are, and then you just marvel at her genius. You would think this style of writing would be sort of a “one hit wonder” for lack of a better phrase. I mean what are the odds of pulling off the same trick successfully? Well T.J. Reid seems to have it down to a science her writing always seems fresh and unique and brilliant (take a shot of every time I say that word lol)…

Guys I don’t know what else to say. This book is just amazing, it makes you nostalgic and heartbroken but it also makes you laugh and smile. It’s life and it’s not. It’s… It’s… Damn just read it ok…

Stay Noble,

• Ngoza May •

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Feeling Like an Outsider While Inside

Ever had that crazy experience were you find yourself in a group of people and everyone seems to split into even smaller groups and you somehow end up group-less so you try to squeeze yourself into one but just end up standing at the edge like a creep because people are either ignoring you or not hearing what you have to say….

Or the other case where you do end up in a group and everyone is talking and when you finally try to get a word in someone interrupts right away like what you were saying wasn’t important. It sucks. It’s frustrating and I wanted to scream here for a bit. *Screams for like an eternity* It’s either that or just cry yah know. I’m I the only one that thinks people are just difficult? That’s why I love books, the characters are so easy to understand and everyone’s motives are clear and I don’t have to make… gulp… conversation (*shudder*)

Anyway I’m just making myself feel worse moping about this, so let’s move on to something happier. Despite all my complaining I feel like I finally found my groove. *2019 you can start now* For some reason I was struggling so hard to accomplish even the simplest tasks. Waking up, getting out of bed and actually doing things? Forget it, every morning felt like the most mammoth of tasks. Just the thought of getting up and going to classes was enough to send me into a deeper spiral but (!!!) I somehow pulled myself out of that funk. If you’re going through hard days be assured they’ll pass, they always do and you’ll come out of the other side feeling like a damn boss for pulling yourself out.

Thanks for reading if you made it this far. This was just a vent/motivational(??!) post hence the lack of coherence… Anyway, I hope you’re having a good day. If you’re not just hang in there buddy. Remember:

Stay Noble,

• Ngoza May •

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My noble people! I’m hungry right now. I’m so hungry I surpassed the point of being hungry and I’m now what you call hangry. You don’t understand, I’m eat a horse hungry, sell your last cow for a couple of beans hungry….. Hey guys it’s Ngoza here and welcome to my clear lack of creativity today.

You: Oh hey that’s such a nice block over there, what is it?

Me: My creative block.


Okaaaay… So what’s been happening in my life? I bet you’ve been dying for the 4-1-1, the tea, the happenings. Are you ready for it!

The-one-guy-in-the-back: YEAH!!

*Guys, I need help*

Anyway my week has been hell. This blog has honestly provided such a nice escape. When I’m typing out a post here I don’t have to think about adulting and responsibilities *ugh* I mean I may have two assignments due tomorrow and a test on Friday but who cares, when I’m on here it all fades away…… *Sobs*

Anywaaaay. Guys I have just discovered – wait for it – Grey’s freaking Anatomy! Why did no one tell me how good a show this is??? I’m literally on season 1 episode 4 and that doctor guy is sooo adorable. There’s only one doctor guy on that show that can be called adorable and so I don’t think I need to specify who I’m talking about….

What I’m I reading? I honestly couldn’t even tell you. One day I read a page of this, and the next a page of that. I’m just not in the mood to commit to a single book. * PS: I choose books like I choose boyfriends* (just kidding, ily babe!).

Y’all have you heard Oil and Water by Rational? If you’ve watched The Sun is Also a Star trailer you may have heard the song. I’m O-B-S-E-S-S-E-D.. You know when you love a song so much you don’t want to play it alot because you’re scared you’ll end up hating it? That’s this song for me.

Oh my gosh this post is such a me-fest, let’s break the monotony and just end the post here. But because I’m a lowkey narcissist, here’s a little summary:

What I’m watching: Grey’s Anatomy

What I’m reading: The Hunger Games (maybe)

What I’m listening to: Oil and Water by Rational

What I’m doing: Being slowly crushed under the burden of expectation placed on me by my parents, university and society.

Thanks for reading guys! We’ll chat in the next one! *Well I’ll do the chatting, you just be the eyeballs*

Stay Noble,

• Ngoza May •

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Coffee, Acrylic Nails and Final Year Projects…

Hello my noble people! Hope you’re all having a great Monday because I sure as hell am not. Let me give you the tea… A couple of weeks ago I got my nails done (coz you know, this sister gotta slay) but in hindsight I’m realizing I should not have done them at the place where I did. Y’all this place was sketchy AF but sadly my sense decided to take a vecay that day. The bargain price was hella sweet so obvs I couldn’t turn away, I just couldn’t, stop looking at me like that! So anyway this dude (yes *dude* because in Zambia a lot of these bargain manicure stops are run and operated by men) at the nail salon glues on my nails and I’m there feeling fire, feeling like a full on slay queen.

*Cut to two weeks later* F#$@! Why won’t they come off??! You guys I’m having a full on panic attack because I did everything you’re supposed to do. Dipped them in acetone and all but these mothafreakers (I don’t swear, for some reason I can’t) won’t come off! I swear if the guy glued them on with super glue ― *don’t freak out*…


*Anyway* I’m in my final year of university, so you know what that means… Final year projects, yay! (That was totally sarcastic) I 100% believe that final year project were specifically designed for me, you know, to be my hell on earth. Just kidding! I’m totally happy..

So yeah I’m low-key drowning but that’s university for you because isn’t everyone? The only thing keeping me sane is coffee… I’m not even kidding when I say ice coffee changed my life. Hot coffee just sucks, it’s too hot then it’s icky and luke warm like what even?! So now I swear by ice coffee, it probably helps that Zambia is hot as… I don’t know a desert? Anyway I should probably get back to my project and stop procrastinating on here. See you in the next one!

Stay Noble,

• Ngoza May •

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Book Talk | 99 Percent Mine by Sally Thorne

99 Percent Mine
Author: Sally Thorne
Genre: Contemporary Romance
Publisher: William Morrow Paperbacks
Release Date: 27 January 2018

My Rating: ⭐⭐

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Crush: a strong and often short-lived infatuation, particularly for someone beyond your reach…

Darcy Barrett has undertaken a global survey of men. She’s travelled the world, and can categorically say that no one measures up to Tom Valeska, whose only flaw is that Darcy’s twin brother Jamie saw him first and claimed him forever as his best friend. Despite Darcy’s best efforts, Tom’s off limits and loyal to her brother, 99%. That’s the problem with finding her dream man at age eight and peaking in her photography career at age twenty—ever since, she’s had to learn to settle for good enough.

When Darcy and Jamie inherit a tumble-down cottage from their grandmother, they’re left with strict instructions to bring it back to its former glory and sell the property. Darcy plans to be in an aisle seat halfway across the ocean as soon as the renovations start, but before she can cut and run, she finds a familiar face on her porch: house-flipper extraordinaire Tom’s arrived, he’s bearing power tools, and he’s single for the first time in almost a decade.

Suddenly Darcy’s considering sticking around to make sure her twin doesn’t ruin the cottage’s inherent magic with his penchant for grey and chrome. She’s definitely not staying because of her new business partner’s tight t-shirts, or that perfect face that’s inspiring her to pick up her camera again. Soon sparks are flying—and it’s not the faulty wiring. It turns out one percent of Tom’s heart might not be enough for Darcy anymore. This time around, she’s switching things up. She’s going to make Tom Valeska 99 percent hers.

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